JUNE 21, 1979 – OCTOBER 8, 2004
I’ve heard them say You’ve died
I couldn’t stop my tears, I’ve cried
Those signs let me to understand but I
I was stupid to understand them,
They said you’ve died.
Today streets cried for you,
Today trees cried for you,
Today the sky cried for you,
Today I cried, but you couldn’t cry for yourself
Baby, I’m guilty, let me cry instead of you too.
I saw, You felt a lot of pain
You’ve fought death for a life to gain
But GOD is GOD, GOD needs good people too
“the good dies young” he took you, letting me to live in vain
I saw there, trees were hailing, bowing in front of your soul
I saw, white doves were there and hailing in front of your soul
I saw there, one of the dove looked staring up at me
I thought it might be you, your soul
Letting us know that you are with us, by your soul
Today streets cried for you,
Today trees cried for you,
Today the sky cried for you,
Today I cried, but you couldn’t cry for yourself
Baby, I’m guilty, let me cry instead of you too.
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I can’t believe you’ve passed away
It wasn’t supposed to be that way
I can’t sleep on the bed you’ve slept on
Here I still can’t believe-“OH GOD!”
But there you’ve already gone.
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October 8th, 2004 – I have lost one diamond eye of my life bracelet…
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Baby – life feels boring, here without you!
Baby – life feels dying, here without you!
Baby – life feels hell, here without you!
Baby – life feels ending, here without you!
Baby – Life feels too much for me alone, here without you!
Baby – How about you in heaven, there you feel it too?
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I long for you, I am all alone
I long for you, I am all alone
I miss you, I miss the things you've done
I am sorry, I understood it late, now you are gone
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Today your lips were cold
I’ve never felt them this way, GOD!
I lost you, still can not believe
I don’t know why, but still can not believe
I am sorry, sometimes I treat you bad
Escaped couple of times, us-to-meet chances when I had
I never knew them being last to had
That last happening things were signs of death foretold,
Today your lips were cold.
Your asking me to write a poem for remembrance
Your being mad at me by feeling my ignorance
Your last phone talk was so unhappy, sad
I never knew them being last to had
I’m sorry I regret, regret
Not letting you to make some dreams ahead
Knowing that you were the only one I met
Who, for me was ready, own life to forget
I’m sorry, sorry I have cried a lot
But will my tears wash out my sins?
And will I ever talk to you again? I can’t
Becoz I mislead my opportunity, and got you not
Your lips were cold today
I couldn’t warm them up
You’ve passed away
October 09, 2004
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Я видел как прощались все, как я,
Я увидел твои глаза, они смотрели говоря
“прощай” теперь меня нет у тебя!
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Ты вошла в мою жизнь как ангел,
И как ангел из нее, улетела навсегда.
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Ты вошла в мою жизнь как ангел,
Тогда когда не знал я делать что
Как быть
В то время когда себя я спрашивал “я кто?”
Заботилась, поддерживая, не завися от того
Как чувствуешь себя “ты”, плохо или хорошо
Всегда показывая уваженье мне, моим друзьям
Всегда была готова рядом быть
Даже когда “рядом быть” не приходило в голову друзьям.
Все время ангелом была
Таким считала и меня
Когда обижу
Всегда был первый шаг твоим
Только тогда я вспоминал просить прощенье
Скажи какой я ангел, как могу быть им?
Ведь не ценил я в свое время, то что было у меня
Ведь были самые счастливые времена
А я не понимал тебя…
Сам не могу себя простить
Каким лицом теперь тебя “прости” спросить?
Ты вошла как ангел в мою жизнь и
Ангелом в Рай Божий улетела из нее!
прости…
October 10, 2004
May Allah Bless, Ameen!